So... two years later, I'm still around, haven't posted anything, but just was busy with all the lurking. I don't know if anyone is still following my account (I somehow highly doubt it, because I just up and disappeared for such a long time) but.. I'm back.

Sort of.

I'm putting drawing aside. It's just not in me anymore, and I find that I'm better with written words. I have some prose works in progress, some will be uploaded soon.

I have thought about opening a new account for the writing, but in the end decided against it, because this is me - and I have nothing to be ashamed of or anything to hide.

So.. yes. New works up soon. I hope everyone is still alive, active and well.

Anisa

Oh, simple thing, where have you gone?
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on.
So tell me when you're gonna let me in,
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin.
SO if you have a minute why don't we go,
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything.
So why don't we go, somewhere only we know,
Somewhere only we know.

"Somewhere Only We Know" by Keane






Heya guys.

Just to call in to say I'm alive and well.



I have quit my job today - I think it was finally the time to do that. It was eating me up, mostly my nerves. I figured that in the last year I've become much more paranoid and nervous, not to mention being constatnly irritated or angry.

That is not healthy. At all.

So yes - quit my job. I also decided not to try for colledge this year - it was partially due to some problems with my parents, but also due to my own decision. I just thought I.. well, I'm not in the right mind for it now.

To be frank, I've been really angry, depressed most of the time through the course of the last few months. Thus no new pictures, poems, stories - no inspiration. Usually artists manage to pull and feed on those emotions but not me - just couldn't do it. So willingless (if that word even exists). Hopefully that will pass now.

In my private life.. Well, I'll just say that I had a brief relationship with someone, but it ended well seeing that the entire time I was thinking of someone else. I think I may be in love - but so much time has passed since I've been seriously in love with someone that I just don't know if this is it. Not it IT, but you know - possibility that I have found someone to share all my silence with. Like Nelly says: You could mean everything to me :lala:

We shall see. I'd like to, of course, but sometimes these things just don't add up, as we all have learned.

I'm going to a long holiday, which I think I rightfully deserve. I won't be here till 15th of September, maybe even the start of October. Then I'll become active again - well, after all - Winter is my season.

I'm thinking of all of you, and I'm missing and loving you so much.


THANK YOU NOTE: To everyone who has or will fave my artwork while I'm gone. Oddly enough, there has been some plus numbers of faves - which puzzles me and makes me think someone is pimping me somewhere.. If yes - Thank you who ever you are. If not - well, thanks again to all those who faved and will in the future.

from Anisa

No, really.


Still feeling kind of blue and down about everything in general - from work to getting ready for colledge again, to just life all around.

Been stressed a lot lately - and by saying a lot I do mean A LOT. If it weren't for my few very much loved girlfriends I'd be totally whacko by now.

Much to those two - my Coocko and my Blacky.


I'm not posting anything - my computer crashed again and this time I wasn't able to save anything at all from my drawings and frankly I don't have the inspiration nor the time nor the nerves to draw right now. As if it's become more of a burden lately, and I don't like it. Maybe summer will change it.


I'm honestly sorry and I apologize to everyone who's pictures I should have done, (ageeees ago), but still haven't. I just don't want to do them right now - they will be crappy and not worthy and I don't what that.

So - I'm taking a break. I'll still lurk around, fave a bit and maybe comment - but otherwise, on a break.

Wish me luck to find whatever I hope to find to make this go away.



Much love for everybody.

Computer crashed. Again.

I won't even bother to write anything anymore on that subject. I should know better by now.

But if you will excuse me I AM going to experience another nervous break down.


Thank you.


Call you back when... Well, either when the comp gets back or when my mind gets back.

Hello!


Erm.. I've been really busy these last few weeks. I seriously hope that will change soon. If everything goes well, several updates should start by the beginning of February.

I hope.

Well, just to let you know I'm still here, lurking, but here. Kisses to you all.



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